Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Beyong Frustrated

I am mother first and for most. I have four beautiful brilliant children. I have been married for almost 5 years and been with him for eight years all together. I have a beautiful 11 year daughter that has been dealing with some issues of her own since she was about I want to say truely around 4 years old. She is beyond defiant she is disrespectful, she always has something to say back, she is mulniplitive with everything, she lies to your face and will believe it to the fullest. The list can go on and on but she is a beautiful, creative, bright, funny, caring girl. My problem is this, my family is falling apart due to all the issues we all have to face on a day to day basis. I am tired and so stressed out my husband is tired and stressed out my other three children are not wanting to be bothered with her. I as a mother hate the fact that she has dug her self this deep and has created this whole for her self and every time we throw her a hand she bites it and then spits it out. We have done everything for her therapy, family therapy, a fourty-five day stay, doctors, medications, and nothing. She will tell you I dont know why I do it. I am at such at a loss as to what to do with her. I do not want to give up on her at all but I have three other children to take are of as well as my house hold and I can not do it anymore. My mental health is affected as well as my husbands and my other children as well with all the fighting everyday. Depression has hit my husband he wants to leave and on the other hand he wants to stay because he loves us. Depression has hit me because I love my daughter but can not deal with anymore. It is like a cloud of doom everyday when I come home from work and I am tired of it. I am beyond frustrated.......

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Things are just not the same!!

Things are just not the same anymore!! We are in a so called resetion right??!! Does this mean that we have to take everything away from the lower income class??!! Our lovely govener is now taking away GED programs, Training programs, cutting back in transportaion, cutting back on houseing and homeless shelters... need I go on?? There is so many things that are being taken away from the people that are having a hard enough time! Mass health, now you can not even get a filling if need be! They are trying to cut off clothing allowences for those who are on assistancs. I know that when I was a single mother and depended on these things that is what kept me afloat!!! How on earth can the lower income class make it on the crumbs that are given to us!? Do they not stop to think that we are suffering enough? As long as there pockets are alright to feed thier families and them selves, its okay.. They had a so called pay cut of what?! $300 a year or so what is that??!! It out rages me to see this! I have four children and it is hard enough to work my butt off but now the safty net is going to be gone!! Training programs are going to be taken away, that will lead to more unemployment! If a person is not able to get training for a job how are they going to obtain the skills to get that job? I mean realy was it not realisticly thought about before the so called budget was made?? Oh well, let the lower class suffer some more... I work with the mentally challenged and they are going to suffer as well!! They do not have services out there as it is and now that is in jepordy! I mean come on!!! There is so many things that is not right going on here and NO ONE is doing anything to stop it.. No one is even aware of it untill it is to late and then want to make noise! The time is NOW to stand up for our rights and our safty net!! I can not go on about this because I am outraged and can not understand why we, the lower class, keep getting the knife in our backs!!